Weekly(ish) newsletter: The Light Is Fixed
I'm working on wrapping up the year on a high note, and as one of my final acts, I decided to get my poor neglected loft professionally cleaned. (Cue Jay Z "I spring train in the winter" and turn it into I spring clean in the winter).
In my last act of conquering the mess I’d created in my home, I decided to change the lightbulb that had been out in my bathroom for about a year now. No, I’ve not been using the bathroom in the dark, there are other lights in there. This light however is the first light when you walk in. With it being out, you have to travel further into the bathroom to turn on the other light which is the most inconvenient way to do things. So, I trekked to Home Depot with an old light bulb in hand (so that I wouldn’t screw up the purchase) to finally fix this.
When I got back to my sparkling loft, I climbed on a ladder with a few screwdrivers (why are there so many?!). Once I got up there, it turned out that I didn’t even need a screwdriver...But I did need some strength to unscrew the bolts that were holding the recessed lighting frame in place. After a bit of struggle, the light was in and the cover was back on. Success!
I had to go in the bathroom several times those first few days (clearly). Each time, out of instinct, I reached for the other switch that I used to use. Then I’d remember that the new light was fixed and excitedly turn off the other light to turn on my preferred one.
As I did it this morning, I smiled to myself and said aloud “The light is fixed.” It was this lightbulb moment (pun intended) where I realized that just as I’d avoided fixing this light for about a year, I’d unconsciously done the same thing with my life. For most of this year, I’ve been forced to shed my old habits and old people and shifted my focus to self development and inner healing. And finally, I know that my light is fixed.
Here's to new light and amazing 2019!